I’ve had many identity crises in my life. The worst was when I became a mom. I just didn’t know who I was anymore and it took a good long time to settle into this mom role. Eventually I sorted it all out. I know who I am. I don’t need my name sewed into my underwear. Nope.
But I don’t think I want to be IzzyMom anymore.
Is that weird?
I feel hemmed in by it. I feel stifled and just, I don’t know…
Anyway, not sure what to do about this, if anything. I tried a couple years ago to transition to The Caffeinatrix when I was tired of being a mommyblogger but then I realized there is value tied to this name. People know it. It’s heavily linked (only because I’ve been blogging since late 2005, not because I’m completely awesome. No. I’m really only a little awesome).
So yeah, there’s also what one of the bazillions of social media experts on Twitter would call “brand recognition” and when I kind of impulsively jumped ship here to start The Caffeinatrix, someone at a conference asked me point blank why I was abandoning my “brand” that I’d worked so hard to build (I did?) and then I kind of freaked and was all “Nooo…I want back in! I want my mommyblog back!” mostly because it felt safe and comfy and familiar.
But you know, I don’t write about being a mom all that much, or my kids really at all. What business do I have even having the word “mom” in my name?
Like my before-babies clothes, it just doesn’t fit anymore. But if I leave again, will I be able to come back when I panic and need my mommyblog woobie?
Will anybody even care if I move again?
Would I even care if they didn’t?
Do I even need a personal blog?
Do I even like blogging anymore?
I do have things to say. I just feel like none of it fits in this space anymore.
And the most important question of all, because I’m all about the depth, folks…
WHAT WOULD I CALL IT???